sarea | shoes and doughnuts and Wii Fit, oh my!

I'm slowly coming out of my funk about Robert Sheehan leaving Misfits, though if he were actually near me I'd be clinging to him saying "Don't goooooooo" and he'd have to drag me along the ground as he walked. Sigh.

I have changed my mood theme to being Nathan specific. Apparently we won't be getting any more images of him. :(

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I brought doughnuts into the office today from Frost Doughnuts. Frost changes their doughnut selections daily. Today I selected the (in)famous bacon maple bar, Bavarian cream, double chocolate, banana walnut, Southern red velvet, coconut island, banana split fritter, and white chocolate raspberry truffle, among others.

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The new TV arrived yesterday, woohoo!! I worked from home so that I could be there to sign for it -- it's way too big for me to try and haul from UPS myself, neither car I have would have been able to fit a package that big. It was over 70lbs and I seriously doubted my ability to get it set up... but I did it. I was ~~sweating like a pig~~ perspiring delicately by the end, but I got it set up on the stand as I wanted, and even set up my Wii and Wii Fit. Personally I think the Wii Fit should have allowed me to input the effort I spent setting it all up.

I even started using the Fit (I've had it forever but never set it up before due to lack of space), just the balance stuff (I like ski jump the most), but half the time was spent shooing Jaime away because he was bound and determined to attack the moving stuff on the screen. /sigh I really fear that one of these days I'm going to go home and find that he's knocked the TV over during one of his crazy cat sprints around the house (or digging around in the back for the wires). :/

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I've finally started City of Fallen Angels (speaking of which, what are our plans for this Thursday,

elle_blessing)? I've only gotten to the beginning of chapter 2. Also, because I am a good friend, I transcribed Jace's letter to Clary from City of Glass, which was a bonus in the Barnes & Noble version, for

jade_okelani. I'm posting it here for anyone else who would be interested (and if you haven't read the books, it's probably not that interesting).

Clary,

Despite everything, I can't bear the thought of this ring being lost forever, any more than I can bear the thought of leaving you forever. And though I have no choice about the one, at least I can choose about the other. I'm leaving you our family ring because you have as much right to it as I do.

I'm writing this watching the sun come up. You're asleep, dreams moving behind your restless eyelids. I wish I knew what you were thinking. I wish I could slip into your head and see the world the way you do. I wish I could see myself the way you do. But maybe I don't want to see that. Maybe it would make me feel even more than I already do that I'm perpetuating some kind of Great Lie on you, and I couldn't stand that.

I belong to you. You could do anything you wanted with me and I would let you. You could ask anything of me and I'd break myself trying to make you happy. My heart tells me this is the best and greatest feeling I have ever had. But my mind knows the difference between wanting what you can't have and wanting what you shouldn't want. And I shouldn't want you.

All night I've watched you sleeping, watched the moonlight come and go, casting its shadows across your face in black and white. I've never seen anything more beautiful. I think of the life we could have had if things were different, a life where this night is not a singular event, separate from everything else that's real, but every night. But things aren't different, and I can't look at you without feeling like I've tricked you into loving me.

The truth no one is willing to say out loud is that no one has a shot against Valentine but me. I can get close to him like no one else can. I can pretend I want to join him and he'll believe me, up until that last moment where I end it all, one way or another. I have something of Sebastian's; I can track him to where my father's hiding, and that's what I'm going to do. So I lied to you last night. I said I just wanted one night with you. But I want every night with you. And that's why I have to slip out of your window now, like a coward. Because if I had to tell you this to your face, I couldn't make myself go.

I don't blame you if you hate me, I wish you would.

As long as I can still dream, I will dream of you.

- Jace

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And because I'm apparently on a huge spending spree, I might as well confess that I have purchased six -- that's right, SIX -- pairs of shoes in the last 3 days or so. Lots of sandals... I figure spring is right around the corner and I'll be getting a pedicure soon!