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28 doesn't feel all that different from 27.

You wouldn't believe how many Xterras I've seen on the road lately. And specifically, how many yellow Xterras. I passed by a Nissan dealership and there was even one in the showroom. I guess I can't blame anyone for wanting a bit of Logan in their lives. :)) Seriously, though -- I wonder how many of those sales can be traced back to VM. Speaking of VM, a horrible thought occurred to me. In her VM thread the other day,

mynuet said something about how Veronica was way more into her OBHWF scenario than anyone else was -- which is probably true. But that led me to pondering -- is that why she started things up with Logan? She's the one who kissed him. Up until that point, she had lost everything, including her secondary family, of which Logan was a part. Was being with Logan just her way of trying to recapture some of that, however she could get it? She wanted to be on good terms with him -- missed that and the life she used to have. Since she couldn't have Duncan, maybe she went for the next best thing, the only thing that she could have, in her mind. And since Logan wanted it too, it was just that easy to let it happen, let herself have some small crumb of what she used to have. That's what I'd say if I were a V/D shipper, I think. :-S It totally makes sense, but the LoVe shipper in me doesn't want to accept it. Wah.

My mom is a cleaning machine. I wish I could be more like her. My place looks unbelievably awesome now -- I don't know how she does it. I mean, there's still lots of stuff I have to put away, but she cleaned the bathrooms and the kitchen from top to bottom (I don't even know where the mop is, so she totally scrubbed the floor by hand), and now, instead of one bedroom being "finished," all three of them are. Basically all I have to do now is tidy up the bonus/family room, and that's it. And even that looks very uncluttered now. Did I mention that I finally got my office desk? And that it's the most awesome thing ever? I'll have to take pictures. Next order of business is to get myself a digital camera. It's one of those things that I've let slip by me, for some reason. It's like, am I living in the stone age or something, when even my parents have one and I don't?

Well, Talis is back. He's much better behaved now, but I don't know how he'll be after having to spend hours and hours by himself, day after day. :-S I am seriously considering getting another dog, although the thought of two dogs exhausts me -- particularly if one isn't house trained. But in the long run it might be for the best, because it will hopefully keep Talis from being lonely (and thus destructive), and will occupy him while I'm trying to ~~play WoW~~ clean. He's so freakin' adorable, and he bites a lot less now. Also, he understands about "bed time," and depending on how tired he is, will either sleep in his little bed or will sleep at the foot of mine, and won't stir even if I get up in the middle of the night to use the restroom. However, at around 7:08 every morning I am woken up by the feeling of someone STARING at me, willing me to wake up just by their sheer willpower. It's Talis, just sitting there, looking and looking and LOOKING at me, until I get up and take him out. *sigh* I am going to be SO TIRED. I've been going to bed really early while my mom's been around, but now that she's gone, I will be playing WoW, probably for longer than I should, and then Talis is going to wake me up at 7am and I'm going to be soooooo cranky.

I failed to get my mom interested in Veronica Mars. Turns out she's not interested in shows about school-age kids, and was only into Buffy due to the supernatural aspect of it (she loves horror movies and the like). However, she is really into Lost, so I have sent her home with my DVDs. Her theory (bear in mind, I haven't seen S2 and she's only seen 8 eps of S1) is that they're all dead and don't know it yet. "How else would Locke be able to walk now?" she demands. How indeed. I know that's one of the theories that's been bantered about; I don't know if anything that's happened in S2 sheds any more light on the situation (don't tell me!), but that's her theory and she's sticking to it.

Ever since my paid account lapsed, I have felt incomplete without all my different icons and being unable to change my mood theme and being limited as to my journal's layout. I was trying to be smarter about where I spend my money and was just about to cave, but

ropo saved me. Now I can use 1 billion icons again, wheee! I think I'm way too lazy now to do any kind of customized layout, though. Maybe one day. Also,

jade_okelani is the rockingest. She wrote 5 ficlets starring five of my OTPs! There's Mal/Inara, Dave/Georgia, Lex/Lana, Syd/Sark, and Draco/Ginny! (Speaking of D/G, the latest part of DV totally made me cry again. What is UP with that. I'm dying to see the last chapter. First, because I want to know how it all turns out, and second, because it will finally be done and I can move on. It's like the end of an era!)

Due to my mom and Talis being around, I hardly played any WoW in the last four days or so -- probably under an hour. I got some AB playing in early last week, but I was afraid that I'd lose my new rank. I don't know how it happened, but I actually gained headway -- I'm now about halfway to First Sergeant. Craziness. I plan to play Inara and get her to her 20s (because SOME PEOPLE *cough

akscullycough* are so impatient), but I hope to keep up with my PVP'ing as well.

Also, it's been so crazy trying to keep up with the Bruins in college football. They've been incredibly lucky this year. I had totally given up on them in the Stanford game and went to dinner with my mom, only to check the score later and find, to my amazement, that they had won. They better get their act together, because their luck won't hold out forever, and they can't play that way against USC, especially. Until then, I'll bask in our #5 BCS ranking and undefeated status. :D

And that's all I have to say about that.

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Hee! I've had that same thought about yellow Xterras. Apparently Washington is inundated with Logan fans. Or, you know, you and I drive the same places.

Yeah, the same places filled with Logan fans.

Jade says she hasn't really noticed the overabundance of yellow XTerras. Clearly, all the Logan love is centered in the Pacific Northwest.

That's because the Pacific Northwest has taste in angsty, assholey, sexay boys who promote illegal homelss boxing. Hee!

Goodness, I almost sobbed during the new DV T_T

Love the new look of your LJ! ^^

Hee, thanks. I liked the look of it on

akscully's LJ, so took it for my own since it's a system one, and changed the color scheme. There was no almost involved wrt my DV reading. I was like, "Crap, my eyes are feeling funny ... oh no, I think I'm going to ... yep, I'm crying." :p

Happy (late) birthday!!

Thanks!! :D

My God, this is pink.

Also, I totally know what you mean with the dog and staring. Duncan does it too and it's creepy/funny. He puts the whammy on you and you must OBEY OBEY OBEY.

The nice thing about PvP servers is that you can PvP all the time! Yes, it's quite excting.

Hooray for living another year!

OMG I didn't know your dog's name was Duncan. Oh, you could NEVER ship a character named Duncan then, can you? I mean, not that I think V/D is your type anyway, but even if it were.

The nice thing about PvP servers is that you can PvP all the time!

You just have an answer for everything. The thing is, I like to PVP by CHOICE, not because I'm innocently collecting a flower and some stealthed rogue decides he don't like the look of me and renders me dead.

Well, here's the thing. I'm able to differentiate between my dog and a fictional character. So shipping people is not really a problem.

That's why you travel in groups! WoW: Encouraging Gang Related Activities Since 2004.

Oh, I totally can't. I named Talis after this hero in a Jude Deveraux novel, and now I can't even read it. It's ruined forever. My brother may be playing WoW again, as his coworkers play on Hyjal or something, so I may be starting YET ANOTHER new character. *weepz*

OMG, I'm done with your brother. :)) Didn't he wash his hands of WoW or something? If you need someone else to play with (dirty!), I'm here, d00d.

Also, did you hear that they're going to be putting in weather effects in 1.9? Finally, we'll be able to fight in the rain.

Happy Birthday! *blows kazoo*

I'm glad the moving and the time with your mom went okay! Ha ha, and I can't wait to hear more Talis stories, he's just like my dog :D :D :D If you get tired of him staring at you in the morning, you can always do what we do... shut him up in the laundry room at night.

Danke! Sadly, my laundry room is also my entertainment room, so I fear locking him up in there, as he might then tear apart all my precious books/DVDs. I have considered doing what other people do -- crate their dogs at night. Seems to soothe them (because they have their own 'space' and are the masters of their domain), and is more restful for the parents. But I don't know, the poor thing is left by himself already so much of the time that to do it for eight more hours seems unnecessarily mean. :(

I don't think so, because a) it was a peck kinda kiss she gave him, and under total 'my hero' circumstances, so it wasn't like she was anticipating two minutes of heaven, and b) dating Logan would completely obliterate the OBHWF effect - it'd be like a devotedR/Hr shipper suddenly saying, "Well, you know, H/Hr's the same thing, really."

Also, happy birthday.

Yeah, Jade kind of talked me down from the ledge on that one. :"> It was a "thank you for coming to rescue me!" kiss ... but you know, at the same time, she waited waaaaaaaay too long after she did it to see what his reaction would be. You know what I mean? If it was just a simple peck, she could have done it, then turned and walked casually to her car. Instead, she waited and waited for his response. So it seemed like she totally wanted him to take it further, once it was done. Whether it was what she intended when she kissed him, I'd say a firm, "maybe not." :))

And yes, dating Logan would obliterate the OBHWF effect, but ... she had lost everything by that point. IMHO it'd be quite possible for her to want some crumb of it back, even if it was warped and unlike exactly what she had before -- because at this point, the idea of having exactly what she had before would have seemed virtually impossible. But being on good terms with Logan ... that's something she had before, and probably wanted back ... possibly even if this was the way she had to get it. I'm not sure that I fully believe that, but it's a possibility.

The thing that "saves" it for me is the fact that Logan had just done something pretty cool for her, and she was trying to thank him -- plus, I've just remembered, she tells Leo later that "I just made out with my dead best friend's boyfriend, who, by the way, I hate." :)) So at least outwardly, there didn't seem to be any projection going on...

You're just fixated on the angst, aren't you?

THIS IS ENTIRELY YOUR FAULT.

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She kissed him because she wanted to, because she wanted to say thank you and because for a moment she forgot that she hated him now. For just a moment, she remembered when they were friends, when he would defend her against anyone who dared to be rude to her, even if they were just repeating things he’d said as a joke. It had been so good to be his friend, so perfect – Logan and Lilly, Veronica and Duncan, always and forever. She’d lost all of it, and for a moment it was back, and he was her friend again.

Except that something changed. She’d touched her lips to his cheek countless times over the years; hugs and kisses were part of who she’d been, part of the Veronica Mars that believed in pep squads and the friendship of the 09ers and that the world was fair. She didn’t know what made this different, just that it was, and she was trapped for a moment trying to figure out, her curiosity holding her still.

Was it the way his breath caught, if just a little, then still a little? Maybe it was the slight stiffening of his body, the tension that crept into his back and shoulders so that he stood so straight he made her feel even shorter. Maybe it was the way his eyes widened a fraction, drawing attention to the intensity with which he was looking at her. Was he offended? Shocked? Or was it something else, something that she’d never seen from him before, at least not directed at her, at least not that she’d ever have admitted?

It was shocking when he kissed her. Not just because she didn’t expect it, although she didn’t, not even when his lips were descending on hers with deliberate, inexorable intensity. Not because she didn’t want him to, although that she did want him to kiss her would surprise her later, when she could think about it. Instead it was shocking simply because it felt so good, so right, and nothing else mattered. Lilly was forgotten, Duncan wasn’t thought of, the whole past year of bitterness and hatred melted away, and even the years of friendship before that disappeared.

All that there was at that moment was Logan, and if she had any sense, she would be frightened by it. Shock should have given way to panic and disgust, not to a melting sweetness that wasn’t even cheapened by taking place at a seedy motel in front of anyone who happened to be passing by. Her gallant knight, imperfect in so many ways, had still ridden to Camelot to rescue her. Surely that excused a momentary lapse of sanity?

She finally broke away when she realized how very much she wanted to believe her own thoughts, the insanity brought on by the feeling of his breath on her face and his hands caressing her. Did she manage to seem normal as she left him? But what was normal now, now that down was up and front was back and Duncan’s girlfriend had been kissed by Lilly’s boyfriend and it had felt like magic?

Dude, that was so good! I love that whole second-to-last paragraph, and the last line. See, that's all I need, some Veronica confusion over something that makes so much sense. I was identifying so much with Veronica at this point (and really, all of S1, which makes the turn-about in S2 all the more jarring) that it's mostly her motivation(s) that I question, especially given everything that happens afterward. But I've rarely stopped to consider what was going through Logan's mind at this moment. Was he appalled by what he was doing, for various reasons including but not limited to the fact that this was a) his best friend's ex-girlfriend; b) a girl he had derided for over a year, and convinced himself was the cause of his girlfriend's death and who had betrayed him; c) a girl he had gone out of his way to torment for quite some time; d) a girl he had possibly entertained the hots for some time in the recent past?

I guess the question is, to be fair to Veronica, how do we know Logan's motives were pure? I guess the fact that he's stayed true to his feelings is why I haven't explored his motivations as thoroughly as I've considered Veronica's -- but the fact is, he almost doesn't have a choice. If Lilly were alive, this improbable romance might never have happened, and if Duncan had been the one to die instead of Lilly, would Logan have gone right back to her?

These are rhetorical (sort of) questions, mind you. :)) I don't expect you to know the answer to every question I pose; I just like thinking out loud. Hee.

I think that Logan's motives aren't entirely pure, as part of why he's turning to Veronica is because his life is fucked up, and she's a rock, someone solid and real that he can cling to. I don't think he's really conflicted about having derided her - I think they teased each other enough when they were friends that there was a pattern of conflict set up before Lilly died and it became real hostility. And she gave as good as she got, so I doubt he had the slightest idea of how deeply he was wounding her.

I've never really bought into that he really blamed her for Lilly's death. Blaming her was inextricably linked with blaming himself, and even though it wasn't really mentioned, you can probably throw in blaming Duncan and the senior Kanes and even the frickin' maid for not being there. The blame there is way too diffuse to focus as a specific grudge against Veronica on its own. It does, however, make a dandy reinforcement for blaming Veronica for betraying him by tattling about the kiss with Yolanda; to my mind, the key phrase in that whole scene is when he says that she (Veronica) was his friend, too. It shifts his anger entirely away from being related to Lilly - his anger is because of Veronica, because of her actions and her relationship with Logan; Lilly is merely the catalyst. And yes, I think that having the hots for her sometime in the recent past is related to that, because even if he'd never conciously think it out, let alone say it, he'd totally blame her for the fact that he's thinking of her in ways he shouldn't be, and that'd be part of what made him angry with her, especially if you add in guilt over him thinking of her that way despite the circumstances with Lilly's last breakup with him and her subsequent death.

And it'd certainly make for an interesting AU, to write about what would've happened if it had been Duncan who died instead of Lilly. Someone should write it. *peers at you*

*nodnod* I'm with you on all that.

As for that fic, let's just say it's in the works. Not necessarily by me. :D

Who is it that I must turn my Puppy Dog Eyes upon?

The writer's name begins with "J" and ends with "ade." :))

Hmmmm. I was already pondering PDE deployment with regards to IYOK. Now I must debate as to priorities so as not to overuse and thus diminish this power.

Happy Birthday! :D

If you're interested, the kate spade website is having an online sample sale, last day is today. There's not much left though.

Thanks!

Oooh, I did not know about that -- thanks for pointing the way. I might have to splurge a bit...

Southern California must have a Logan obsession too. Those yellow XTerras are everywhere. I saw 3 in a Savons parking lot one time and two were parked next to each other. It made me want to scream, nothing against Logan but I generally dislike yellow cars.

Heehee! Jade must be looking in the wrong places. ;) Yellow cars have grown on me, but they're not my favorite. Eye catching, though.

Er... Happy belated birthday =/ But I have a good excuse, I swear! I was, like, in Spain and stuff =P

No worries at all! And thank you.

So we need an update from you! What's going on there? Have you decided to accept the position? Inquiring minds want to know!

I wouldn't even know where to being, but yeah, I'm staying. I'm going back to Mexico for a week this Thursday and I'll be flying back, with no return date to Mexico attached, this 21st.

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